Friday, June 12, 2009

an absence worth taking

It's been a long time since I last blogged. To long. I've had ideas I've been mulling over for the past month that I've wanted to write down but where do I start? I haven't written in four months and in those four months life has taught me lessons that I never would have learned had I not been willing to take a chance. Taking chances, thats the biggest lesson I have learned. More often than not I don't want to take chances, I just want to live my life my way. God never intended for us to live our lives our way. He intended for us to have a plan but take chances so we could get from point A to point B.
I went on a bike tour with Shake Your Peace!, an ecologically contious rock band based in San Francisco, in May. It was the greatest thing I've done in a year. We biked from Logan to Salt Lake City (which was so easy, I don't know why I haven't done it before) and stopped at high schools and bars along the way to play shows. I spoke with the Utahopia now crew about the importance of bike riding and I was the first officially roady that Shake Your Peace has ever had. It was great to be with people like me for a week. People who care about ecology, sustainability, community, human rights, and riding bikes. I met people who genuinly care about other people. This hasn't happened for a long time.

I am now one of many formerly engaged girls in Utah over the age of 21. To many Utahins who still hold on to the passe view that you must be married by 21, this means that I am worthless. To me this means that I am doing what I am suppose to do, I am finishing my college education and going to baking school so that I can live my dreams. It means Im not giving up on what I have wanted to do since I was a child, and I am happy about it. I am so happy I want to climb to the top of th Wells Fargo building on Center and Main. St and scream at the top of my lungs!

Being happy is important, and making yourself happy is even more important. I am still learning how to do this since I spend most of my time trying to make other people happy. I am being a bit selfish these days, I am spending more time baking and less time with people. This is making me happy and I feel like I am going in the right direction.

In August I will be done with school and moving on, well to some extent. There is a chance I will still be in Logan since my contract with Aggie Blue Bikes goes until mid fall. I am looking for baking aprenticeships right now so that I have the experience for chef school.

That is life, Maybe I'll start postin more often.


christa said...

I'm so very proud of you. A lot of people realize too late that making YOURSELF happy is just as important as your ability to make others happy. I'm glad everything is going so well for you. Have I told you lately that you're amazing?


PS - Send me some yummy, healthy cookies ;D

thePatrick said...

Don't fret. I married one of those formerly engaged girls in Utah over the age of (gasp) 23. We survived the initial shock of disappointing generations past and future.